Felt so tired to be someone that I'm actually not. I don't know why but i just felt so afraid to lose my real self, the REAL me!
Previously, I won't even order orange juice with no sugar and also go to the gym three times a week. What's wrong with me? The thing that I practically hate the most is non other than to exercise and to stop eating. But now, I tried so hard to pretend to be someone that I'm not. Yet, i look so... Sometimes, I would ask myself, "Why am I doing this?" but I, myself don't really know the answer. Buddy, should like continue to work hard so that I could be who I want or just be my real self, happy and carefree?